Wacky Wednesday

Who will Inspire you!?

I hate the fact I caught the first episode of Season 8 of The Biggest Loser, while eating junk food. Dang it!

Today's Wacky Wednesday, find me awkwardly facing the truth, that I am unhealthy. Not only am I dealing with a chronic genetic disorder called Neurofibromatosis....But I am also dealing with another chronic disorder called being fat! I hate it....I hate feeling the way I do.

If I can fight NF ... and be a Hero for this....Then why can't I do it for my weight too? What am I so afraid of?

Being fat takes a lot of effort. Not only does it tax me physically....It drains me emotionally. I'm exhausted all the time. .. and very frustrated. I am always on a diet, trying this and that. Counting calories, keeping track of points, Low-carb, no carbs....uggghhhh the crazy merry- go- round of dieting has me always thinking about food, which kind of misses the point of it all, right?

Just like with the NF....My weight is a part of me...it does not define me...but it sure does try to.

Writing everyday, is really hard. My head is hurting a lot lately.....I'm having severe headaches everyday. I'm looking forward to the tests coming up. Finally I am getting the help I need. I had to do sooo much screaming....so much complaining, to get these Drs to listen to me....and now FINALLY.....something is being done.

Happy Wednesday....Thank you for all the support. XXXX